Anonymous Thoughts .8 :- My Experiment With Social Media .1

Today's generation don't know about the life before social media. It was really beautiful. People used to celebrate festivals in real life too. We used to write letters to our relatives, friends. It was a time where people used to have courage for every thing in life. People Used to have harmony in relationships, they used to enjoy life in every aspect . they were far from their love ones but they were close to their love ones when I see today's time people are so busy they are so selfish and it is very difficult to penetrate their inner conscious. People forget everything very easily after sharing things on social media. It almost destroyed human's behaviour of empathy , their thought process, understanding of life, relationships, and most important thing is their inner conscience.

                                                Values are the basic entity of human behaviour. It gives birth to attitude and attitude gives birth to behaviour . Social media systematically has changed the values of human. attitude and behaviour will change like wise. I bet the inventors never knew about this things  now they realize . I think this is reason why most of the people who invented never use social media too frequently. 

It was 2006 when Orkut came to existence for me. I was so excited. For Person like me Who was shy from starting but want to talk to people, want to enjoy life with friends , it was easy to approach people, to share my feelings. Somewhere they were also feeling like me. I never had courage to talk but it gave me platform to share what i feel to whom i wanted to talk. years passed i was enjoying , i was not bothered about the ones who were near to me. I was living life in my imaginary world where i never met a person in real but i had sense of presence of person.
                                                        But i Could do this in a different way .I could talk to persons near me. I could talk to my friends but i choose Orkut because it was not courageous. So, it killed my Courage to express myself and at the same time i was unaware of real what's going in real world. do my friend need me or is there some one who is interested in talking to me. I lost everything .
                                                 
Years were passing. I was getting involved in this suddenly i left everything. And in 2010 i took admission in college . I was living in hostel. First Year was awesome. I made friends I enjoyed a lot we had a group of friends. We were doing good in college , We used to play cricket . First year was so perfect. I never missed Orkut. some incidents took place and i had fight with my all friends. And I changed my room in hostel. Their i found new friend. Who had same problem with me of expressing  feelings.
      That time people started talking about Facebook (Fb). Well in 2-3 months everyone was talking about Fb. so out of curiosity me and my friend logged in and started using Fb. After logging in Facebook, Suddenly all college was in our reach. We sent request to every single student. and started chatting. But i never met anyone in person. I used to crack jokes , make fun of their , fight do everything on Fb. I was sad because of fight with my old friends and Fb gave me platform to forget every pain. In Some days every student started using . We were using Fb like hell , every single thing were shared on FB whether it was outing , dinner , travelling , relationship. I never Knew why we were so interested in sharing our life with everyone. But everyone in college was doing the same thing. It became part of our life. I will say not only part , it started governing our life. No one was literally able to figure out that time where we were going .  We were talking less to everyone but we kept sharing everything on social media. we were so interested in other's life. The ones, who are not able to do all this things were busy in thinking everyone accept us is happy. In reality, No one was happy, everyone is just faking. We were talking less to family and using Fb more. We Were not interested what's going our in families because we have found a space where we can do anything, which we cant do in real life.
               I realized with time, I became close on social media with everyone but came far away from my real life. It was so annoying , I couldn't sleep properly for many nights. I decided to quit. and wanted to deleted my account. and here comes a next problem . Fb  was designed in such a manner they wont let you easily quit this. Of course you are bread better for them. It is not easy to quit any addiction whether it be smoking, toxic relationship, any old habit. They were asking for 14 days before that if you login they will start cycle again. So it took me almost months to quit addiction of Fb. But this was not end, Real Problem started After I logged in again after year.

Till then, I learnt that it destroyed my emotions, my understanding , my thought process in many ways. But I understood the real danger after i logged in again after year.

To Be Continued....